Where to even start…
So many things have changed over the last 3 months and I have been wanting to share it all with you but I also needed time to process it all myself first. You guys are always so supportive and excited for me and I appreciate it so much- but I will admit, it’s hard to be vulnerable while you’re in the thick of it.
So, let’s get to the question I know many of you are dying to ask “are you moving to Australia to be with #AB?!” and the answer is no… I am most definitely not. Aussie Boy and I are no longer together for a long list of reasons. Trust me when I say I would LOVE to spill the tea on the situation but I am classy AF. I try to only use my platform in a positive way. Instead I will share the life lesson he taught me: The red flags were literally slapping me in my face and I turned my eye. I suppressed that tiny voice in my head and that feeling in my gut… not cool, Holl, not cool. I can sit here and sulk in the fact that I f’ed up or I can grow up, put my big girl panties on, and look for the why. Trust me when I say it took me quite some time to find that why, but here is the conclusion I’ve come to: #AB was simply the universe giving me a refresher course on listening to my intuition. Typically I am SO good at listening to my gut. I honestly used to pride myself on it. I talk to my students about that feeling in their tummy and how they should listen to it and never ignore it…I ignored it. I’ll never know why I did, but I can look back at the situation and say I learned so much about myself and say that I am stronger because of it. *sigh- another one bites the dust LOL
SOOO now that the question is out of the way we can get to the real life update!!
I am nervous, excited, f’ing terrified to say that I am taking a leave from teaching!!!! (EEEEK) I seriously can’t believe I’m writing this. I can whole heartedly say that I LOVE teaching and it is a huge part of my identity. It will always be a part of my life in some way or another. I cannot tell you how many times I’ve cried today, let alone this week. I am an emotional wreck but that gut feeling, you know that one I promised I would always listen to? Well, it’s telling me to take that leap. The leap into the unknown. I don’t have a real plan for the next year and I am finally starting to be at peace with that. I am a big picture girl and I’ve always had a plan. I graduated high school, went straight to university, got a full time teaching position, bought a house with my ex, and thought I would settle down, HA! I’m so funny. Now at 31 I’m mortgage free, single, and I feel like my life is just about to start…
This year I plan to say YES to as much as I possibly can! A big focus of mine will be on growing Teach Me Style. Balancing a full time teaching career and a blog is hard… not impossible, but hard. I’ve had to say no to many opportunities that have come my way simply because of time and dates. Now teachers, don’t worry, ironically I have big plans to share even more teaching content than I did before. It was just too overwhelming to share it all while I was teaching. I was just so busy trying to teach that I didn’t have the time to share! Now instead of teaching I can SHARE my lessons, resources, and ideas with you! I am SO excited about this!
I also want to travel during non peak season (teachers, be jealous LOL), possibly move to another city, travel some more, maybe substitute teach if I run out of money LOL, go on some dates, and collect memories I will look back on and think f#kc ya!
There you have it, a little life update with Holl! Thanks again for the continued love, support, and encouragement, you guys are seriously the best!
Stay tuned… the best is yet to come!
PS. For anyone who’s curious, in Regina Public School Division, after 7 or more years of teaching on a permanent contract, you can apply for a one year unpaid leave. You are still covered under your medical benefits, you can buy back your pension (this is an important one!) and if at any point I want to return to teaching, all I need to do is give four weeks notice and I am guaranteed a full time position. You can read more about it in the STF LINC agreement.